No More?

Hibernating again.

This is not good. 

Not that my life is uninteresting. I always have a good life. It's becoming of a habit of mine to break more rules here. The rebellious part of me is resurfacing. This is not good. I'm occasionally a bitch, I throw tantrums at my boyfriend, I said things that are not so decent [the heck?!] and I like things to be my WAY. This is not good.

Then, I too realised that I'm trying to be nice to everyone, except for some ancient grudges that shall beheld forever. Tried of keeping a list of my enemies made here. This is good. I tell myself not to gossip about other people within certain range, or you know, expanding the stories. The temptation is there, but I want to be nice. Like genuine nice. I still bitch around occasionally with my pack [can't help that!].

So what's with the change?

Oh, I'm still very loud somehow. Like REAL LOUD.

Thought that I could use a change for this year. Why be evil when you have the chance to be nice? So I shall not take side and do my own work! Isn't that great? =) (Okay, I know this does not seem sincere, but I am seriously attempting to do that) And, to cope with the stress of not gossiping and bitching, I shall channel it to my boyfriend. Yes boyfriend, you hear that.

Back to the question. 

Pores are at large scale (terrified!), dry skin and untamed hair. STRESS! I thought that can change things a little bit. Pamper my skin = don't bitch a lot! Tulah (bahasa sarawak of karma), people say lah!

On a side note, I just want to make myself happy. No external penetration.