Hearty

Follow your heart and learn to trust.

I am still yearning for an answer despite the months we went through. It is like opening a new chapter each day and yet, I couldn’t find the perfect answer. When my day went rough, the answer seemed to sink deeper. Worse, I couldn’t grasp it and understand in time. As months pass, I feel really intimidated by any possible thing. You just don’t realise that, don’t you? It’s not the mood swing, it’s the hurricane I’m building up in myself.

At times, I wish that life isn’t that complicated. I can love freely without hiccups along the way and what not. But I guess that’s how the Creator plan my life. I should not complain but to cherish every moment I had. I knew time is not to be reversed, in which I contemplated the actions I did when I reflected. It brings unfairness to me. Although the upcoming days are promising, my hopes and desires are yet to be fulfilled. Or it may not be fulfilled like the way I wanted.

The reality is infuriating. I am feeling miserable each day, not wanting to be like this. Ah my lost soul. I need the world to revolve on the two of us. ONLY. Period. Why should I punish myself like this? I deserve a happier life. I know that.

Is it that hard for an answer?
Ask and you will be answered.

I’m asking, so can I have the answer that has been playing in my head for ages?

P.S So much to think, so much to contemplate. Lost in my own game of life.