What?

I'm never a person with patience but I'll fight for what I believe in and certainly for the one I love. I've let myself down for so many times when I didn't believe in myself and him. Suck up the reality, no relationship is without flaws. Mine certainly has holes in it. I keep trying to give my best and boom! My best is not up to his best so it doesn't add up to anything. 

But what happen when you're both just so into one another and still argue a lot?

Not the best couple out there but efforts count, eh? Nothing else. 

The golden question: Can I let him go so that he'll be happy? NO. 

I believe in so many things. One of it is never lose your guy when you're unsure of things. If you're so sure that he'll crawl back to you after 10 years, well, be it. Beware though, if he owns that killer look and nice-looking butt, you might as well keep him to your side. I mean it, really. May sound like a pervert, but don't lose the butt or the bod. So my answer is still no. Not because of whatever I said but I really like him. Nothing of first love sight but those feelings, gah! How can you remove them when it's hammered on for so long and it gets rusty like that? You just keep it.

I know when I start to let go slowly, things would have changed drastically. I'll see him in the future with his wife and kids, and I probably end up as a spinster. How more sad can life be? It's never easy to love back (I know how it feels) and when you reach that certain point of your life, you just can't start over again. There's no Cancel or Start Over button (reminds me of my AirAsia booking just now) because that's not reality.

The reality is I love you so much baby bear! ♥

And I know I'm just rambling because I think I'm sick.

But isn't life like that? So happening! =)