Mirror, Mirror

I am not entitled to judge, I knew that. But sooner or later, I have to. Why did you destroy your own self like that? Are you that desperate?

I had a shock in my life when I got to learn the news that are spreading now. I was questioning myself, how true is the story? I don’t want to hear just one side of the story because it seems unfair to both of you. But everyone’s talking. Dumb isn’t it? In fact, I don’t even want to think of the consequences. Your actions are far beyond what is unexpected. How does it feels hiding behind a mask that’s penetrable enough? Are you contented? Again, who am I to judge you?

But remembering it’s YOU, who are all [quote] read your Scriptures, verse blah, this blah [unquote], I’ve lost the real you. Why are you so foolish? You are a person with brains, and so are your “so-called” partner. I was literally shaking my head when I knew what did you do behind the unveiled curtains. Are you all out to condemn yourself or just a tactical move to destroy people that you really care? ‘Coz for now, I’m not on your side anymore. Despite being friends and all, this is too much to handle. I don’t want to clean up the mess you did and I suppose, you have to do it by yourself.

Open your eyes and see, how many people are actually backing you up now? Na-da, miss. Worse, are we that oblivious to your life? It’s good being secretive but for this purpose? I think you should hang yourself for good. If one day you are being victimized, blame no one but yourself. I’ll be there watching the pain you are going through.

Why it has to be him?
There are so many guys out there willing to give you whatever it is that you want. But him? Why? I can’t do the explanations and I hope one day, you can. I have to lose him as a friend. I hope you’re happy. Don’t be a goody two shoes if you’re not that capable. Oh please, don’t pop out with that bubbly sunshine face anytime now because I may as well puke. Don’t irritate the hell out of me. You have him, so go do him. Just keep a distance from me.

Curiosity indeed killed a cat (Hong Seng, 2010)